Holiday Sorrow

[frankiethewaffle]

Ok, I know I use this forum for a lot of personal crap. It is a way to reach out to those that share my views. I had received a message from my Brother on MySpace about my description, "I am depressed outta my frickin' mind."

I don't know what he thought about it, but it was made and pertained to our friend, more or less, dying from a brain tumor. I have kinda come out of that initial feeling, but those feelings remain. This was my personal response:

"I should have actually, posted my response to you personally. When I posted that stuff about being depressed, I was just thinking that I was losing one of....well...us. Still do. I am sure you share that. (delete the public thing if Craig will see it.)

This is just something I don't like. Considering the anniversary we have coming up. Not that we will be wearing party hats or anything, the pain remains.

Craig was there the whole time. Now....I'd rather take another shot to the head if it would go away. I'd give everything I have two of to make this go away.

It just kind of hurts too much I guess.

See you at X-Mas."

The anniversary is of my Mothers' death. 10 years this Christmas morning. The "shot to the head" refers to the recent concussion which made me lose my mind for a while. I WOULD give everything I have two of to save the, "other brother by another Mother.....and Father."

The only reason I care about this Holiday season is to celebrate with my nieces. Otherwise, I just don't have the heart for it.

Truly, I don't want to be a bummer. These are just feelings. Share yours.

[heyseuss]

This christmas will be me celebrating the 20th christmas without family.

[scoobydiesel]

This christmas will be me celebrating the 20th christmas without family.
Bitch you have us.

we are a family on here.

[rabidbadger]

Frankie, I am glad you can post here, and we are here to help. As far as we can with text. I just wanna see ya be strong, be there for the others in your life, and don't let this destroy your spirit, your humor, and your love of life. Stay strong, man.

[frankiethewaffle]

Thanks Rabid.

These anniversary's can be rough.

Luckily, I do have that close family structure.

I guess my best wish is for those that don't. If you can't depend on those you love. Depend on those you can trust. US.

All aside, I do have support. I only wish that all others do have that support too. Even if it is us.

Those that feel lonely. I guess, can join us. Just don't feel lonely this holiday.

We are here forever. Find any lost support here if no where else.

I only wish happiness among my fellow Rev3 fans. Happy Holidays all.

I just don't have the hearty for celebration. Sorry.

[rabidbadger]

Thanks Rabid.

I just wish I could do more to help. :(

I just don't have the hearty for celebration. Sorry.

No apology necessary. You feel what you need to feel. No-one can or should take that away from you. Your feelings are yours; they stay, then change, then grow, then make you stronger.

[ariastar]

We had such high hopes of this being our last childless Christmas, but instead got the official ruling of miscarrying the babies. Holidays can definitely be hard. While some people here are mean about people sharing their feelings, most if he are good friends, even off the forum. Don't apologize for sharing. It's one if the things friends are for.

[skyz]

everything and everyone is on loan nothing is permanent we own nothing everything is transient and impermanent

that is the nature of life for everyone no exceptions

and it is part of the holiday spirit to remember those we loved and lost for as long as we remember them they still live in our hearts where it counts


Auld Lang Syne

Should auld acquaintance be forgot
and never brought to mind?
Should auld acquaintance be forgot
and days of auld lang syne?
For auld lang syne, my dear,
for auld lang syne,
we'll take a cup of kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.

Should auld acquaintance be forgot
and never brought to mind?
Should auld acquaintance be forgot
and days of auld lang syne?
And here's a hand, my trusty friend
And gie's a hand o' thine
We'll tak' a cup o' kindness yet
For auld lang syne